I always thot that life was simple... That everything was as simple as.. black or white.. You proved me wrong. You once added colours to my life... Colours i never dreamt of before.. It was surreal.. Then all of a sudden.. Just when i thought that i have learn all there was to it.. You gave me a reality check. So i learn again.. i continue learning.. the hard way... Some things you said.. some things you did.. i could never make myself forget...
But the thing i fail to understand even now. Is where i stand?.. You know what i want.. You know what i hope and wish .... But you continue to avoid it... You choose to hide. SO when that is the case... Comes the dificult part - me. Do you expect me to continue hoping or make a decision i never wanted to make..
Yesterday was Valentine's day.. i did all i could to make it a happy valentines for you.. I dont know if you actually enjoyed what i planned.. but there was only so much i cld do.. And it didnt help that we havent been talking to each other for so so long le... Actually to be very honest.. Even if we couldnt meet as often as before.. i would be happy and contented if we could at least have a talk on the phone every now and then.. to update one another on each other's life... Even that i cant see you trying..
So now, all i can think of is for you to be happy.. Coz im starting to learn the hardest part of a relationship.. That is, 'if you really love a person.. you just want her to be happy'. PLease please... tell me what you actually want.. Cause i'm like lost and confused now. Its like theres no more signs to lead me to where i shd go.. You told me communication is impt in a r/s.. So where is the communication now?... I dont think you even know when is my next off day... And i ?.. dont even know what you are working as now... ...
All i can say now is... No matter what you're thinkin... how you're feeling.. or what your intentions are.. I really cant tell.. Just a blurred vision of everyth now..