Ok.. As happy as I always TRY to portray myself.. I realised that often, I find myself feeling a certain 'emptyness' inside.
Sigh.. Sometimes I just feel that I can't do anything right.. No wonder the ppl around me don't take me seriously. Some ppl just see me as a slacker.. Others might see me as a happy-go-lucky spoilt brat.. But who really knows what kind of person I really am..
I see myself as someone who treasures friendship, kinship and relationships alot. Everybody who came into my life is so damn important. Even if you are the shuttle bus driver who smiles at me whenever I pay you that one dollar every morning.. Or if you are that guy who I always bump to at the bridge towards NIE.. My point is.. No matter how often we talk, or how seldom we meet, you're very important to me la..
I don't understand why my R/S always end up in a mess. Whenever I'm in it, I keep thinking of what life would be like if I was not in it. Then when finally I'm out of it, I end up with so much regrets. (Nevermind I don't blame you if you don't understand what I just said.. 0.0)
I'm actually feeling quite lonely recently. I miss having someone to talk to whenever I'm bored.. Miss going for those meaningless walks in shopping malls (window shopping) with you.. I always try telling myself that this kind of feeling is only temporary. And that I can eventually just get over the r/s. But it seems like no matter how I try to keep my mind busy, I'l always end up back to where I was. I actually hate this feeling alot cos its affecting my ability to concentrate. Memories should be kept, but for how long? Haiz.. I really hope I can stop thinking this way le. =X
I still believe in happiness.
Sigh.. Sometimes I just feel that I can't do anything right.. No wonder the ppl around me don't take me seriously. Some ppl just see me as a slacker.. Others might see me as a happy-go-lucky spoilt brat.. But who really knows what kind of person I really am..
I see myself as someone who treasures friendship, kinship and relationships alot. Everybody who came into my life is so damn important. Even if you are the shuttle bus driver who smiles at me whenever I pay you that one dollar every morning.. Or if you are that guy who I always bump to at the bridge towards NIE.. My point is.. No matter how often we talk, or how seldom we meet, you're very important to me la..
I don't understand why my R/S always end up in a mess. Whenever I'm in it, I keep thinking of what life would be like if I was not in it. Then when finally I'm out of it, I end up with so much regrets. (Nevermind I don't blame you if you don't understand what I just said.. 0.0)
I'm actually feeling quite lonely recently. I miss having someone to talk to whenever I'm bored.. Miss going for those meaningless walks in shopping malls (window shopping) with you.. I always try telling myself that this kind of feeling is only temporary. And that I can eventually just get over the r/s. But it seems like no matter how I try to keep my mind busy, I'l always end up back to where I was. I actually hate this feeling alot cos its affecting my ability to concentrate. Memories should be kept, but for how long? Haiz.. I really hope I can stop thinking this way le. =X
I still believe in happiness.